Archives For September 2005

Rob Bell is the man. That is all I have to say. I have just discovered these woderful videos that I have heard everyone talking about. I just sat down and watched my first one. It was called Sunday-004. Even though the thoughts were simple they were so well put together and well constructed. One thing that I like to read or hear is a well put together presentation. I envy people who can write and speak with clarity. I wish I had a 10th of their God given abilities. These videos are definitly something that are well written and well put together. I am looking forward to the next video that I am going to watch, it is called dust-004.

With my recent return to school I have had to do something that no one really wants to do. I had to get a job. I have looked for a job in this fine town of Lincoln and so far have come up unsuccessful. I have applied at Wal-Mart, I really wanted to be a cashier, mainly because I could see the old ladies that come in everyday and we could talk. I have also applied at the local gas station “Thornton’s.” This place has provided me with sunflower seeds and gas for a year now and I figured this would be a good place to work. The only problem is, I think they took my application and just threw it away. Then I saw a flyer on the bulletin board saying “part-time work, will pay cash, office work.” So I figured I would call the number. I called and left a message and very quickly received a call back. The caller on the other end asked for Tyler. I soon figured out that the guy thought that my name was Tyler, so I let him go on and call me Tyler because I did not want to make him feel bad and I did not want to correct my future boss. So we decide to meet and talk about the job. I go to the meeting, and see a guy who is in his mid twenties sitting at the table with a pad of paper that said “Tyler” on it. I introduced myself still under the false impression that I was Tyler and we started to talk about the job duties. Right away a red flag was thrown up when I heard the guy said that the job would involve a lot of personal assistance type work. He handed me a piece of paper that had everything that he expected for me to do. Things that were written on the list included: walking his dog, downloading music for him, setting out his clothes and ironing them, setting out all of his food, setting out the tv schedule for every night. These were just a couple of things that I was required to do. So after seeing this I immediately started to try and figure out how I would get out of this. The first thought that popped into my head was just to tell him the truth and say that I do not want to be a personal assistance or butler to anyone. But, then I decided to be a little nicer and said that I did not have enough time to do what he required and that I wanted to focus on school. The only problem with this response was that this just made him start talking more.
He started to talk about how it would only be a little a day and that I could choose my own schedule. When he started to say this, I just got up and started to walk out the door. After this experience I don’t know what I am going to do. The thing is, I need money. I have to pay my insurance, my credit card and I want to buy a Mac and some new golf clubs. I am dead broke and do not know where I am going to get any money. Wish me luck in my search for a job. And let me know if you know anywhere I can get one.

So the word is out. Switchfoots cd sucks. Well maybe, but not to me. I can understand some of the reasons why most people would not like it. And maybe I am just influenced by the major switchfoot fans that are here at school, but I really do think that it is a good cd. I enjoy the music and the lyrics. Though vague at times they leave for a little interpretation of your own. I just like the fact that finally they have come out with a new cd. I was getting sick and tired of the old one. And I am sure that this one will get played to death, and it will get as old as the other one, but that is good. Because right now it is new and fresh. So here is another song that I have enjoyed:
The Shadow Proves the Sunshine

Sunshine, won't you be my mother
Sunshine, come and help me sing
My heart is darker than these oceans
My heart is frozen underneath

We Are
Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain,
While the shadow proves the sunshine,
the shadow proves the sunshine

Too scared that I'll run aways
Hold fast till the brink of daylight where,
The shadow proves the sunshine,
The shadow proves the sunshine

O, Lord, why did you forsake me?
O, Lord, don't be far away (away)
Storm clouds gathering beside me
Please Lord, don't look the other way

I am a,
Crooked soul trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
Where the shadow proves the sunshine,
the shadow proves the sunshine

Too scared that I'll run aways
Hold fast till the brink of daylight where,
The shadow proves the sunshine,
The shadow proves the sunshine

Yeah, yeah!
Shine on me

Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
Where the shadow proves the sunshine,
the shadow proves the sunshine

Too scared that I'll run aways
Holds fast till the brink of daylight where,
The shadow proves the sunshine,
The shadow proves the sunshine

Yeah, yeah (the shadow proves the sunshine)
Shine on me (the shadow proves the sun

the new album has hit the stores and with much anticipation. i will admit that i was never a switchfoot fan until the beautiful let down came out and i still consider myself a in-between fan. i have seen them in concert and enjoyed it, they put on a good show. But now the new album has hit stores. i will admit that i really did not care if it was released tuesday or in a month. i thought it would be cool to hear it, but i wasn’t excited about it like some of the kids that are on my floor. as soon as tuesday hit they were at wal-mart buying the cd and ripping off the cover and poping it into their cd players. i was a little nervous for switchfoot. i thought maybe that the new cd would not be as good as their last cd. i thought that maybe they would flop. but boy was i wrong. this cd is better than the other. like i said above, i did not like switchfoot until beautiful let down. i guess i was one of those kids who jumped on the band-wagon. but now with the release of this cd i am without a doubt a fan. jon foreman can write. there is no more to that. just take a look at these lyrics:
she turns like the ocean
she tells no emotion
she’s been gunning down the fight
she’s just reminiscing
blood, sweat and one thing’s missing
she’s been breaking up inside, inside
singing without tongues screaming without lungs
i want more than my lonely nation, i want more than my lonely nation
desperate we are young. separate we are one
i want more than my desperation. i want more than my lonely nation
we are the target market. we set the corporate target
we are slaves of what we want
we’re just numb and amused and we’re just used to bad news
and we are slaves of what we want
lonely, lonely
don’t leave me hollow. i’m tired
don’t leave me hollow. i’m tired of feeling low, of feeling hollow

this song is one of my many favorites. with this song i have decided to rename my blog. i have also decided that this is part one of a multiple part blog that i am going to start and write about.
stay tuned

Yes, I have recently dusted off the old drums for my latest adventure in life. I have joined a operation heaven team and have all ready played at a Church and we have only practiced once. The set went good for only practicing once. The only problem is, is that I have not played in about 6 months. So it was interesting to play again. But as soon as I started playing it all came back to me. It was like riding a bike. So while I was playing I was thinking about how many high school years I wasted by not practicing more. I wish I would have put more time into it. I regret the fact that I never really put some effort into it. Ya, I enjoyed playing at Church and think that at one point I was getting better, but then I stopped playing. So next week we are playing at a camp for the weekend. The camp is like a family camp type style and there will be over 300 people there. That is crazy to me that some guys who put a band together in about a week and have only practiced a couple of times are playing something like this. But, it will still be cool. So now I start to think, and the question that pops into my mind is, “who is the best band or the top five bands ever?”

The “List”
1) U2
2) Lynyrd Skynyrd
3) Radiohead
4) Shane and Shane
5) The Beatles
And new to my list Johnny Cash
6) Dave Matthews Band Drummer Carter Beaufurd

So what is your list?

what is it about that word that makes us give into it? one of the toughest things for me is self motivation and self-will. with my recent return to school i have received a lot of pressure from people. things as simple as come and play basketball with us, and more serious things like if i am going to play baseball or not. well i have all ready made up my mind. i don’t know how many times i have told people “no i don’t want to play baseball.” the problem is, is that, that answer is not good enough for them, so then they start to put the pressure on me. “well what will you do when we are at practice and you are sitting here alone?” i have a very simple response to that, i will be happy, this will give me time to read and work on homework.
we face pressure everywhere we go. from the job to our family. i have come to discover pressure is one of the most challenging things in life. think about it. how many decisions have you made because of pressure? it is a tough thing. the word pressure just sounds forceful and scary. i hate that word. i probably got off on a tangent and really didn’t make any sense to anyone but that is all right because it all makes sense in my head.

p.s. just got donald miller’s new book “through painted deserts. i can’t wait to read it.
i got it off of for like $10.

check out the newest blogger: tj ingrasia, or as some know him bill. he is one of my good friends and i have convinced him to start to blog.