Archives For October 2006

I have started to realize that I am a pretty big wimp. It has taken me a little while to get to this stage of admittance, but I can now say that I am a wimp. I use to not be this way, and this only last for a little while. Over the spring and summer I was never a wimp, but these last days have turned me into a wimp. I hate cold weather. Now that it is starting to get cold and the wind is picking up I am putting more and more layers on. You know how it seems like women are always cold or always hot but never in the middle, well that is the way I am starting to feel. But I am just cold all the time. I am sitting in class right now with two jackets on, something on my head (I do not know what it is called) and I am still cold. Take a look at that picture and see how cold I am.
If you are like me, then you know what I mean when I say that this weather depresses me. I never want to go outside and I never want to get out of my bed. I think when it starts to snow is when I will really lose it and go off the deep end. What I do not get is that it was about 70 degrees a couple of days ago, and now it is 40 degrees, that makes no sense. I wish the weather would make up its mind.
At least the Cardinals are on tonight and I get to watch that. I cant wait until spring time.

Latelly I have really been thinking a lot about prayer. Struggling through spending more than 10 minutes a day in prayer, struggling through talking with God. I do not know about you but my prayer life is pretty pathetic. I often justify my non-prayer life with the attitude that I am in constant commune with God everyday, when really the only reason I say that is because I am making an excuse for why do not pray or spend time praying. I get frustrated when other people prayer, I get annoyed when their prayers are long, I get annoyed because I want prayer time to be over with. I wish I knew why I think this way, and I am working on trying to think in a different way, but I have a hard time with this. I really do not know why I am writing this, probably more for myself, but also to see if I am not the only one out there who struggles with prayer, and I do not think that I am. I wonder how we as Christians have come to have a hard time communicating with God?