This morning I was driving into work, and it was one of those mornings where I needed energy that could not come from caffeine. I was in need of an uplifting from the Lord, and as I sat in my truck waiting at a stop light praying, the bright lights of the green sign caught my eyes….STARBUCKS. I was drawn into the allure of the cozy coffee shop with hot coffee that gives you a warm feeling. As The light turned green and I was tempted to pull in and get some happiness in a cup I realized something, what is this cup of coffee going to give me? Earlier in the morning I was trying to think about something that would get me through the day, something promising, something that would give me some motivation for waking up that morning. As silly as this sounds, a cup of coffee from starbucks could have been that much needed boost. I started to think about how it would be a treat, something that I didn’t get everyday. It would be a great change up from the folgers coffee that I have to drink every morning. I really started to think that if I could have a venti guatamala coffee I would be in business and this day would be good. As I hit the turn single I realized that I was falling into a trap, a lie: that happiness could be found in a cup of coffee. Sure, it would bring me some momentary happiness that lasted until it hit my esophagus, but what would it do for me when I was faced with a challenge? What would it do for me when I felt unmotivated to even talk? What would it do for me when I was working on my paper for school? Nothing, nothing at all. I wonder how many times I have bought happiness in a cup, hoping it would get me through the day? Have you done this before?
In a previous post found here, I talked about finding true happiness and how it did not come from your situation you were in, but that it came from your heart and what God has called you to. To be honest, I have lost that these days. I have lost any energy and passion for what I do. Sure, I love talking with students all day, helping coach baseball, and getting to study the bible for a living. But most of the time now I am more motivated to sit on the couch and play MLB the show 09 until 345 in the morning (which I did a couple of days ago) then get up and talk to some students about God’s redemptive plan.
What is wrong with me? I keep wondering where it went, what happened, why am I constantly struggling with this? To be honest, I really don’t have any answers or any brilliant revelations (that really never happens). What I do have is a King. A King without a crown.
I have been listening to Matisyahu a lot lately. He is a jewish rapper that has a lot of biblical truths in his lyrics. He has a song called King without a crown. Check out some of the lyrics:
“I say You’re all that I have and you’re all that I need
Each and every day I pray to get to know you please
wanna be close to you, yes I’m so hungry
You’re like water for my soul when it gets thirsty”
A little snippet of a great song (if you want to read the rest click here). Though he is not talking about Jesus, I am glad that we serve a King who is the anti-king. A King that was not bought by the happiness of the world (see Jesus in the desert), a King that did not offer happiness in a cup, but offered happiness that last forever. As little as this might sound, for me this is what is helping me make it through.
As I prepare for Easter, I am reminded of what the King of kings did for me and for you. Though I do not have any answer, and don’t ever claim to, I pray that you will continue to be encouraged and that you will look past the cup of coffee and see a God that is bigger than we can ever imagine.