Well, not all of my problems are solved, but one big problem was solved with four words yesterday:
People Give You Energy
Over the past 8 months I have been in what seems like a funk. It is hard to describe, but mainly I am unmotivated, dissatisfied, and even depressed at times. All of this bothered me, I could not figure out what my problem was. I chalked it up to be 23 and not even close to getting married with no plans for the life and the future. Little did I know the secret to some of the problem was in four letters that were uttered by my dad yesterday. After sitting there and trying to figure out what was wrong with me again (he is a psychologist, it is only natural for me to sit there on the coach and talk) he listened to me talk for about 10 minutes and then said, “People give you energy.” At that moment I realized that he was exactly right, I had no people, therefore I had no energy.
I love blogs, I love twitter, and I love interacting on all of these platforms. Some would call it an obsession, but I call it love at first site. I have twitter open all day as well as check blogs all the time. I do not know how to describe it, I just love the interaction. I did not know how to describe it at least not until yesterday. The reason I love twitter and blogs so much is the interaction with people. The energy that I get from being others gets me going. The problem is, it is limited. It is almost like I am filling up my energy meter, but it is not enough and so the engines are only firing half of the time. I tried other solutions, hanging at starbucks, meeting up with friends for lunch, but nothing seemed to help. I really think that I have lost productivity and have moved more into a funk because I do not work with people.
I use to love to work for about 2 hours and then go and hang with my buddy Nate in his office. We would talk for about 20 minutes (I was getting refueled) and then would go back to work for another 2 or 3 hours. I looked forward to working, getting things done, and having great conversations. That all stopped once I started working from my basement. The problem is my interaction is so limited. I started to use twitter as a way to help, but it is so limited. I would get a @ reply or DM and would reply right back and then have to wait for a response. I would receive an email and respond and expect an immediate response, only to have to wait and hope and check often. I was taking over, I was becoming obsessed with interaction and it was getting me no where, except for more drained.
Honestly, I do not know what it looks like yet to work from home and still be with people. I am open to suggestions, but I am stating to look for ways to get refueled. The hard part for me is that the team that I work with has other jobs, they work at offices, have families, and get to interact with a variety of people daily. Me, well I am kind of stuck with interacting with…well my dog.