Here is something I have learned about myself, I need to have something to fight against.
Not a physical fight between two people, not drama or gossip, but a fight that is me against the odds.
Something to conquer and defeat.
This sounds terribly and I really do not wish this on myself, but I wish I had a financial fight, you know, tons of debt that I could work off. Maybe it is because I would love to check that off the list, a feeling of accomplishment or something, a chance to say I did it. But I think it is more a look to accomplish something, to have a tangible goal of paying off an amount of money.
Right now I feel like I am outside the ring. Maybe this is what fighters feel like in between fights. That itch to get back into the ring and get after it.
I am struggling to find something to work towards, to fight for, to go after. Its not in front of me, its not beside me, its doesn’t even feel like it is in the near future. The fight seems to have gotten the best of this fighter.
I Need A Fight