My sophomore year of College I was in search of getting connected to something.
Idealy I wanted to be apart of a youth ministry where I could serve and be mentored by the youth leaders. I went to the source of connecting eager college students to youth ministry’s looking for volunteers, Rondel Ramsey (Lincoln Christian College Youth Min Prof and the Man). He connected me with this guy named John Luzadder. I thought he had a cool name so we set up a time to meet.
He was a little more intense about the meeting than I expected. I was thinking “dude, settle down. I am just volunteering on Wednesday nights.” But he was doing his due diligence in making sure that this was a good fit for the both of us.
Needless to say, it didn’t work out. Everything was in place for me to start serving on Wednesday nights and possibly Sunday mornings, but I didn’t do it, I chickened out. Well, I wouldn’t call it chickening out, I would call it not wanting to go through the process of driving to Springfield, being uncomfortable and having to be the new guy trying to learn and disciple others at the same time. I know, pretty pathetic.
John went onto work at CIY and I am still sitting in my parents basement.
You ever just wish you could go back in time and change some things?
This is one of those big things I wish I would have done differently. Not because John started to work for CIY and he would have taken me with him (though I wouldn’t be opposed to that), but because I was unwilling to step out and move with God. I was to concerned about my own comfort and was not ready to learn. I missed out on a great opportunity to be stretched, challenged, and taught by a great leader.
John, if for some reason you are reading this or someone tells you about this,
I am sorry for not saying yes. You took a lot of time out of your schedule to meet with me and discuss the possibilities. You were willing to mentor and disciple me.
But I was not to willing at the time. I missed out on what God was going to do through you.