Funny story…at night when I have to make my “trip” to the bathroom,
I find myself throwing phantom punches into the air.
Why? Just to make sure that if anyone is going to pop out in front of me
I beat them to the punch (literally).
As crazy as it sounds, I really feel like this is going to protect me from all the
bad things that could be ahead of me.
This fear can often cripple me to the point of not being able to move at all.
I am manly enough to not use a night light, but to be honest I really do not like the dark.
Crazy fact…Did you know that headlights can only see 200 feet ahead?
For a guy afraid of the dark, this is not a comforting fact.
But am I actually afraid of the dark?
I think I am more afraid of the unknown than darkness.
Not knowing what is going to happen gives me enough fear to not go anywhere.
I was reading Matthew 6 this morning and was reminded of how import vision
is to your life. Check out verse 22-23:
“The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are good,
your whole body will be full of light.
But if your eyes are bad, your whole body will be full of darkness.
If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!
As I was reading this passage I started think about how far my eyes could see.
I would love to be able to turn the “lights” on to my future and see where I am going.
But for some reason everything is really dark.
I feel like I am walking around with a lantern that is only giving a little
light off and I can only see two or three steps in front of me.
While everyone else has a 2 million lamp flashlight and can see so clearly.
I hate that…I hate the unknown, I hate not being able to see,
I hate not knowing, I hate being patient, I hate the darkness.
And yet I feel like God is telling me to follow,
to continue to hold his hand and follow Him.
And yet I feel like I cannot see where I am going.