Did you know that I use to play for the St. Louis Cardinals? I was their starting shortstop and was pretty good. Well, at least in my imagination I played for the St. Louis Cardinals. In fact, as a kid, I played for the Boston Bruins, St. Louis Blues (I was traded by the Bruins to the Blues), and was a wrestler for the WWF. I had a big imagination as a kid. It went as far as me wearing goalie gear and hitting a ball up against the wall and making saves. In my mind I was getting a chance to live out my imagination. But, when I actually saw the truth, my imagination disappeared along with my dreams.
Kids have amazing imaginations. I love to hear what they are thinking about, who they want to be, and what they have been doing. They always put a new spin on something that has become old to me. Shane Hipps talked about this idea in his book Flickering Pixels
“The mind was made to generate, create, and imagine. Creative imagination is a fundamental stage of brain development that begins very early in life. Kids naturally learn how to pretend. So when the mind generates a vast array of imagined pictures to bring a story to life, and then has them summarily replaced by the images of a movie, it is deeply unsatisfying.” (Pg 80 of Flickering Pixels)
I remember the day my dream was popped. I was about 15 and realized that playing for the St. Louis Cardinals was not going to happen. I wasn’t good enough, fast enough, big enough, and honestly lucky enough. Reality set in and my dream was set outside along with the trash to be taken and thrown away. I hated that day I lost my innocence. I lost my dream at age 15 and have had a hard time dreaming ever since.
Do you dream about the future? Do you ever just sit at home and think about what it is going to be like five years from now? I like to do this with ideas. Often times I come with grand ideas, ideas that I think are genius (naturally). The problem with me and ideas is that I get caught up dreaming. I move so far forward and the potential of what could be that I never start the idea. Dreaming has killed many ideas of mine. But in reality another reason why ideas are killed is because the dreams I have seem as far fetched as me flying (I am hoping to literally have this dream very soon in my sleep, working on it now). I have lost my innocence on dreaming because I know reality, I know what it takes to do something, I know that others have better ideas then I do and in turn God will use them over me.
I kill me dreams all the time because I wake up. You ever been in a great dream and wake up in the middle of it? I do this all the time, usually it centers around me being married or being in a band. I feel like these dreams are real, like I am actually doing this, and then I wake up and look around and see an empty dark room and realize that I was dreaming again. John Mayer is right, “when you are dreaming with a broken heart, Waking Up is the hardest part.”
My hope today is that we continue to dream in the reality of God and not get caught up in the reality of the world.