This is my younger sister Kamrie. She is pretty cool, sometimes. Most of the time she is the thorn in my side. Why? Because she is exactly like. She does not let me get away with anything. Constantly keeping me in check as well as dishing back what I throw out there. Yesterday I realized something, I am ruining my sister.
My sister is 15. She reads about a book a week, and not just those stupid books about vampires, she reads any books that I throw her way. As you are reading this, she is currently tackling the book Total Truth by Nancy Percy, she shocks me everyday with different scripture memorization, she has started a ministry called Scarlet Cord that is all about helping prostitutes in Nicarague find God, she writes great blog post like this one or this one or definitely this one, and every Sunday she serves with the special needs ministry at our church.
I am afraid that I am going to ruin all of that. How might you ask? I think my negativity and critical spirit is starting to creep into her soul. I am what you like to call a sarcastic and negative person. I realized this past week that this comes out the most in front of family and friends. What I did not realize was the mark that it left on people. Over the past month I have seen my sister turn from a Bible open, note taking, sermon listening sister, to a Bible open, note taking sermon critiquing critical person. I think that is my fault.
I do not want her to be bitter at the church. I do not want her to be overly critical of everything a minister says. I do not want her to find more negatives then positives. Like I mentioned before, my sister is just like me, which means that she struggles with the same negative spirit that creeps up on you on takes grab of your soul until it squeezes the life out of everything you do.
She use to be very innocent, now she sees the church for what it is, flawed. Yet, it stops there for her. It stops at being flawed, not about being the bride of Christ saved by grace or redeemed by His blood, but flawed. I am afraid she will stop dreaming, stop believing, and stop acting on what God is leading her to do. She has some amazing ideas, passion that cannot be held down, ad potential to change things, and yet I could get in the way of all of that. I might be ruining my sister.
I am committing to change, committing to find more positives to say about the church then negatives, and I committing to help my sister grow, not teach her to tear down. This is my New Years Resolution, to not ruin my sister.