Its amazing what drive and determination can do for you.
I have to get this off my chest, my heart, and my mind.
I can feel the tears forming somewhere deep behind my eyes. I have that pit in your gut that will not go away. And am filled with a steady distraction that keeps me from completing the simplest of task. I call it the desire of success, but really is a desire of meaning and purpose.
This is not one of those things that I can sum up in the end with a nice shiny bow. I would love to do that, but I can’t even begin to write down words that will give answers to anyone, let alone myself. But here is one thing I am learning…you have to make things happen. Profound I know, but when it comes down to anything, you have to be the deciding factor to make anything happen.
I some how have bought into this idea that I could sit back and let God do the work. I even went on to believe that if I was around enough leaders and influencers they would help me out. But simply put, the inaction of my life has led to the feeling of being meaningless.
Its time for me to stop writing and start doing.