I am going to be honest here, I mostly trust myself. I think most of us are like this. Granted there are some of you out there that are very trusting of others, but for the rest of us are naturally self-reliant. I wonder why this is? You might be thinking that the reason you trust yourself is because others have let you down, or maybe because we live in a corrupt society. I don’t really know what it is, but for some reason, we don’t trust others easily. In fact, God, the One who is perfectly trustworthy, is the one we have the hardest time trusting. Do you have a hard time trusting God? Are you like me and often make decisions on your own without even consulting Him? I know I do. It is easy for me to give people lip service and tell them that I am praying about my future or a decision, but often times I do not do it. Often times I revert to the trust I have for myself and for what I think is the best decision. When faced with a situation, I think about it and make the decision, but I never first ask God if it’s what He wants me to do. As I write this I realize how cheesy this sounds. I realize that it sounds too easy. Like I am giving the typical Bible answer here. This idea that all we have to do is trust God and things will work out. But I wonder, why does it sound cheesy to trust in God? Well, I learned something in the book of 2nd Samuel. 2nd Samuel tells the story of King David, a trusting man. He trusted God in everything he did. There is another book of the Bible that talks about David’s life, and that is the Psalms. I have been reading in the Psalms all the places where David is talking about his trust in God, how he has a major decision to make and needs God to tell him what to do. And I realize at that moment I don’t do this. I don’t ever really ask God what to do. I like to think I do, but I don’t. Maybe because what God wants me to do is hard, or maybe it is because it is something that I don’t want to do, but I have a hard time trusting God. I think about where I am today, about the decisions that I have made to be where I am at today. I now realize, even though I made a lot of decisions on my own (at least what I thought was on my own) God is still using these decisions to teach me, to shape me, and to tell me that He is guiding my life. For a long time I thought that every decision I made had to be perfect, because if I didn’t make the right decision I would mess things up and not get to do stuff that God had in mind for me. But over the last couple of years I have learned that God makes a masterpiece out of a mess. He takes my bad decisions and my lack of trust in Him, using them to teach me, and to shape and mold my life. This means that no matter how many times we mess things up or look to ourselves first before looking to God, nothing we can do can separate us from the love of God.